hi all

hello everyone, im up early with some pain and pressure very similar to two weeks ago when i made the trip to tulsa. i can tell once again i over did it yesterday. erick drove me to my mothers where i layed on her couch untill he was done at the church and then we all went out to eat with his parents. i went from sitting, to laying to sitting again but still way to much activity for this little baby.

  so i figured id tell yall a funny story. a couple of days ago myself and the kids were out way early in the morning on our back porch ( me laying on the love sofa). i let them play before it gets to hot for me to be out there. brian was sweeping the patio because at his age its fun and emmalee was pulling the old stickers off of there machanical school bus they ride around. she would crinkle it up and throw it on the ground and brian would come up behind her singing the clean up song and clean it up. well i decided to close my eyes (not sleep) and relax a moment but i felt a little tap on my knee. emma was holding her hand out for me and crinkling some stickers to give to me. i figured oh how sweet she is trying to clean up so i lay out my hand and she drops a still twitching huge spider in my hand she had found and crinkled up! i immidiatly drop it and try not to scream as i stare at it while it dies. she looked so hurt like i didnt like her gift and she kept trying to pick it back up to give to me. i had to scoop it up and toss it in the grass. i cant believe it didnt bite her! im so thankful she has her own guardian angel. after the shock wore out it made me laugh how she isnt afraid of anything at this point. i love them so much

time keeps creeping by

4 weeks 6 days until my expected baby.  why cant it be today :(   i promised myself i wouldnt try to rush this pregnancy because i felt emma (born at 38 weeks) was to tiny at 7 lbs 6 oz then droping a lb wich is kinda normal. but i gotta say at just 35 weeks pregnant i want this kid out! ill compromise at say 3 more weeks but after that im charging rent. if i could shop or organize it would fly by im sure. im finding myself changing font size and decorating my lists. ive been studying up on my camera and made some changes. im going bonkers. i was on full bed rest when i was pregnant with brian at just 4 weeks pregnant. i dont remember being this uptight about it and im not even on full bedrest.

  right now my kids are shooting old passifiers out of there mouths and across the room. it must be pretty fun because they sure are laughing hard. neither one use passifiers any more but digging through daddys drawer they found some really old ones. wow whats that smell…. someone needs a diaper! i bet its brian…

  speaking of potty training was going decent. we had a nice introduction to it but im waitting till baby is born to go hard core. erick was telling 16 month old emma that we poopie in the potty not our diapers. lol. it was funny. i think we have another year before ill try with her unless she takes interest. 

having 3 small kids

well my mom made a comment today that frankley offended me. she said now that i will have a nother baby, my older ones will just have to learn how to play by themselves.  now to understand this comment and the meaning behind it i need to tell you a bit about my mother. she is elderly and grew up in a time without running water, electricity and had to use an out house. she has two younger siblings that werent born close to her age at all. by the time the youngest was a small child and my mom was off to college my grandparents had upscaled to radios, electricity and i believe a tv along with easier rules to follow.  

    so the idea behind her comment was that i wont have time for my older children and my youngest will be favored. outside looking in could seem that way. its hard to imagine one on one time with 3 kids when im just one person. infact without thinking ive even told people that one on one doesnt happen much with the two i have now. honestly it happens all the time! it just took me laying on bedrest to apriciate it because my mind is always so cluttered with chores and money which has been my problem since before i had kids. my son wakes up at 6:30 and from that point till emma wakes at 8:30 i have alone with brian. while they are both up , id say about every 2 min, i have one of them asking “whats that” while they bring me a book, or picture, or dead spider….ewww. most of the time i can sit that child on my lap and explaine what it is and watch as they react to what i say and i ussually get a huge smile or laugh from that child from learning something new.

   if i hold my stomach or put my hands to my head my son comes to me with a huge hug and kiss and say mommy ok? he looks me in the eyes while he waits for my answer and i hug him and let him know how precious he is. typically he will bring me a toy too if he thinks im not ok. i always have a helper for meal time where i show and explaine what im doing and alow one of my kids to help stir and the smiles are heart melting.

emma wakes up an hr before brian does at nap time. we cuddle in my bed and sing songs while waitting for brian to wake but its soo hard on emma to have to wait. she ussually wants to run to his room and push open his door to wake him up to play.

at around a year old its really hard to get a child even an only child to sit still and cuddle. some moms fear the end of the baby stage but im telling you it gets better and better not harder and harder. both kids race to throw away dirty diapers. they give eachother rides in the laundry basket. they build huge towers together and now that we have a tent in our living room they tackle eachother and play peeka  boo.  they help eachother with puzzles. gives kisses for boo boos and the list goes on and on. finnacially its not that hard. i buy bulk wipies at sams for crazy cheap. garage sale clothes or hand me downs… i use good disposable diapers (cloth with the new one) but thats just $90 extra a month. ive only had to increase our grocerie budget by $30 a week. insurance actually gets cheaper per kid. and the amount of joy i get out of seeing the constant smiles is priceless. it wont be harder with another baby, just more fun!

Little Emmalee these days

these days my little boo boo has 8 teeth! i thought it would take forever but she has 4 on the bottom and her two front teeth on top along with 2 molars wich is kinda wierd. her two front teeth seem to be large and spread apart (like mama’s were) but i know in time they will get pushed together. poor critter has such a tiny mouth.

  our neighbors had a HUGE MONSTER garage sale with almost everything being little girl clothes. they have an almost 2 year old who wears 3T because she is sooooo tall. anyways her mom dresses her so cute and they gave us first dibs on sawyers old clothes! we came home with about 100 outfits that will fit her this year through next year for just $60 along with some shoes and hair bands. our drawers are full! after emma wears them we will pass them down to the next girl and if its too stained i will make a quilt out of it as a keepsake for my babies.

 emmas interests these days are heavily into books, toads, watching brother splash in his pool, eatting, dancing, and sleeping. all her favorites.  her hair is getting hard to manage because its just like mine… thin and fine. we dont want to cut her bangs but its at that akward length that wont stay to the side it falls in her face so headbands are a must at the dinner table. she is completely in love with her daddy which is adorable. erick asked if she would love him when she was older and i said absolutly! girls love there daddys and mary men just like them! he said uh oh…. ;) then that got him to wonder how he was like my dad which he totally is but he doesnt see it. total work a holics with big goals in mind. its a great quality to have. im honored emma will mary a man with good work ethics. i dont mind if she gets married at 18 or ever, as long as its brought together by God and not hormones. thats pretty much the theme we go by.